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Name: Rachael
Location: Indiana, United States
Birthday: 5/11/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: i love marching band, hanging out with friends, movies, playing flute, piccolo, piano, and tenor sax, and shopping.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  rakelann24
Member Since:
10/22/2004
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| well, apparently i really suck at keeping this up to date. i haven't
updated this since the beginning of january... maybe i'll work on that.
but not right now... i'm going to get ready for bed...
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| what a horribly depressing day... last night i couldn't sleep. i got
less than two hours of sleep. no idea why. then this morning, i had to
get up at 4:45 to leave for lafayette because my dad had to be to work
by 6:30. i got to the dorms around 6:20, hauled everything up to my
room, and unloaded it all and put it where it belonged. then i
collapsed on my bed around 8:30. it took me forever to fall asleep
again, but finally i did, even if it was just for a little bit. i heard
my computer click (meaning someone left me a message) so i got up to
check it. it was rj's mom. apparently, rj has the flu. correction - rj
has a MAJOR case of the flu. so our date for tomorrow is cancelled (big
surpise there seeing as how something always comes up anyway). i miss
him. i haven't seen him for over three weeks and i've hardly had a
chance to talk to him over break, and now it's going to be even longer.
serves me right, i suppose. anyway, so i talked to rj's mom for an hour
or so, then i went to go find food, remembered that i didn't have any
left in my dorm room, sat down and flipped channels for almost two
hours. then i got up, went to go change my sechedule. when i came back,
i was hungry, so i went to look for food again, and unfortunately, no
food magically appeared. so i sat down at my computer... where i still
am. oh, and rj called me. it was only for about 2 minutes because he
was tired and wanted to go back to sleep, but in those two minutes he
decided that he thinks i'm mad at him for being sick. i'm not mad! how
can you possibly be mad at someone for something they can't control?
sure, i'm a little disappointed that our date is cancelled again, and
i'm super disappointed that i'm not going to get to see him for god
knows how long, but i'm not angry. i just want him to feel better.
figures that i'd get off the phone and be bawling my eyes out. he has
no idea either. he thinks that i'm doing fine - that there's nothing
wrong. all i want to do is see him... and i can't. he thinks i'll see
him tomorrow, but i won't. i can't go over there... he won't have the
energy to see me and it'll just wear him out and make him sicker... and
then it'll be all my fault. i'm not sure he misses me all that much
anyway. so for his own good, i have to stay away. i think that's what's
killing me most. i WANT to be over there, i WANT to see him, i WANT to
help him get better.... but i can't. me being there will only make it
worse. i'm sure of it. he says he can handle me coming over and that
we'll still go on our date, but i highly doubt it. i would bet every
last penny that i have that we'll just cancel it and i'll end up
sitting in my dorm room like usual, either staring at the computer or
staring at the tv. it'll be no surprise there. <shrug> life will
go on. i need to stop feeling sorry for myself. i'm being pathetic.
seriously, it's ridiculous. anyway, i'm going to go find something to
take my mind off of my self-pity.
enjoy the rest of your break.
rachael
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| Well another Christmas has come and gone and it is the last one i will
have ever spent at home... my real home. we move tomorrow. it's kinda
hard to handle. sure, it's just another step to take in our lives and
we'll get through it just like we do everything else, but that doesn't
necessarily make it any easier. on the bright side, i got a lot more
for christmas than i expected. i got a bunch of books (yay!!), i got
the madagascar movie, i got a crock pot for when i move into the
apartment, i got a new keyboard and mouse (both wireless), i got a new
necklace and earrings, i got a new outfit... i think that's about it.
oh, and rj's mom got me a gift certificate to simon malls. pretty cool!
i was surprised though... they must think i'm okay  .
so all in all, i had a pretty good christmas. too bad i have to move
tomorrow. oh well. i'll be back on campus in a few days for gabs.
that'll be my "vacation" this year. i haven't had a real one thus far,
so why start now? in fact, why have one this spring? or this summer?
heck, why have one ever again? wow - i couldn't handle that. i'm
getting out of this state as soon as i get an opportunity. this winter
is out of the question... so is this spring... but maybe i'll have a
break this summer when i'm not going to class that i could do
something. <shrug> it's a long time away, so why worry about it
now? all i know is that i'll go with the flow, just like i always have.
i've made it this long, no reason to stop doing what's always worked in
the past. just keep pluggin' away at it. *i think i can i think i can i
think i can i think i can* haha. anyway, it's time for me to get back
to packing some stuff up. the movers will pack almost everything, but
there are some things i don't want them to handle (my computer, stuff
like that). so i gotta get going on that before it gets too late.
they'll be here around 8:30 or 9 tomorrow, so i have to get up early.
that means early to bed (prolly 1 or 2 am) or i'll die tomorrow.
anyway.... yeah...
hope you had a happy holiday!
rachael
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| i lied, i'm not going to bed... but i was bored, so i took a bunch of online tests... here are some of my results:
i am 17% jerk.
i will die on Tuesday, January 16th, 2063.
i am 17% wench.
95% of women are more manly than me.
i am 50% unintelligent due to poor self confidence.
i am 13% stressed.
i am 23% greedy.
i'm 47% pop culture saavy... even though i guessed on all but 4....
i went from 19% in love last year to 42% in love this year... odd...
i am 20% vice-presidential.
i am 73% dateable.
i am 24% lazy.
i went from being an activist last year to being a submissive introverted concrete feeler this year...
if you ask me, these tests, while incredibly entertaining are a load of
crap. i'm not much of a jerk, i'm not much of a wench, i'm not
unintelligent, i am highly stressed, i'm not greedy, i have no idea
what's really going on in pop culture, love (yeah - we'll leave that
one alone for now)... moving on... i have no idea whether i'm
vice-presidential or not, i think i'm fairly dateable (but already
taken, so it doesn't make a difference anyway), i'm not lazy and i'm
not an acitivst nor am i a submissive introverted concrete feeler.
so... all in all, these tests are bogus and were merely a fun way to
waste my time and laugh at the results that are incredibly slanted...
anyway, i'm off to bed...
rachael
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| Well, Eli Lilly bought our house. Plus, with the new
inspection and all the things wrong with the new house, we don’t know how soon
we’ll have a place to live. We move out on the 27th
whether the new
house is ready or not. We may or may not have a place to live for a
while. Plus, there's a GABS game on the 29th, so I'd be gone that night
as well as the night of the 12/31 - 1/1 because of the early game on
the first. Kinda sucky if you ask me. I'd rather not go. I'm an
alternate, I don't TECHNICALLY have to go... unfortunately, I have to
sub for someone in one of the games, so I have to go for at least one
of them. More than anything, I just want this all to be over. The move,
the stress, everything. This break isn't going to be relaxing for me at
all. I had hoped it would be, but i'd wager that it won't be anything
even remotely close to relaxing. And then it's back to school with no
vacations until the semester ends, at which point I'll have one week
before summer session begins. I won't even have a vacation during
spring break because of Kappa Kappa Psi - Gamma Pi's 50th anniversary.
So, it's going to be a long haul from here until the next break...
meaning, woohoo for one year from now when Christmas break rolls around
again. *sigh* what a bleak time I have ahead of me. I know it could be
worse, and that I sound like all I do is complain. Believe me, I'm
trying to keep a positive outlook on all of this, it's just really
tough. <shrug> It'll all get better. It has to. This semester has
been (by far) the worst of my life. It really can't get much worse. On
the bright side, I got the grade I wanted in organic chemistry. I
worked my butt off for that grade, but I got it. I also got the grades
I wanted in Anthropology and Band and Organic Chem Lab. Biology Lab,
Biology Lecture, and Spanish are still up in the air as to whether or
not I did well enough on those, but we'll see. I'll know on Wednesday
morning. Anyway, it's 10:30 and everyone in my house is asleep... I
think I'm going to go to bed early, seeing as there's no one online and
nothing to do that won't disturb everyone else... G'night.
I hope you take the time to relax a little during break...
Rachael
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